Mm, yes, kinda like you're Vincent D'Onofrio but older, fatter and with less potential to ever be someone.
Sorry honey bunch but the words you're looking for are younger, slimmer, way better benchpress and better, though less well paid, actor.
See, if you're going to try to play with the big kids it's best to get some idea about the facts.
You can do it Bookie, I know it will be a new thing for you but sooner or later the real world is going to have to creep in to that bonkers kittle mind of yours. Oh hold on, maybe it doesn't, your female parental role model has denied reality for your whole life. I wonder why that is?
SG